i applied for a job at some local gaming company. i dunno why i feel weird about it. i do need to find a job, its just that… hmm… feels different. well, nwei if something extraordinary happens, im sure to update this blog. ^__^
im just wondering if some of you guys felt as if things are passing you by? because i am wondering just that right now. why? here are some reasons:
1. close relatives passed away
2. friends (my age) getting married and having children
3. siblings growing up and building their own future
then here’s me, stuck in the same old place. its somewhat frustrating. i gotta get outta this loop somehow…
A few years back I posted an incident involving me and a car accident. It was one of those moments I just want to forget. I said to myself that it would never happen again.
Fast forward to this year, I just happened again tonight while I was driving home from my shop. Damn. It was all my fault though. *Sigh* Human error, I would call it. Luckily, the damage is minor. I just hope they won’t overprice the repairs.
My last word? O-M-G!
You dont know how much I need you.
While youre near me I dont feel blue.
And when we kiss I know that you need me too.
I cant believe I found a love thats so pure and true.
But it all was bullshit.
It was a goddam joke.
And when I think of you linda,
I hope you fucking choke.
I hope youre glad with what youve done to me.
I lay in bed all day long feeling melancholy.
You left me here all alone, tears running constantly.
Oh somebody kill me please,
Somebody kill me plee-ase,
Im on my knees,
Pretty pretty please kill me.
I want to die.
Put a bullet in my head.
Why is it that what we fear happens more often than what we want? Irony is life’s way of teasing. And its quite unfair.
Why do I disappoint the people I want to support?
Why do I end up with problems I dont fathom?
Why do I get stuck with people who pull me down?
Why do I fail when I work freakin hard?
Why do I hurt the one’s I love?
Why am I so confused?
Why can’t I achieve peace?
So many why’s… the greatest irony of it all is that my life is so complicated for someone who simply wants to get by and enjoy life.
But there’s one thing I can spite life for, no matter how it tries to make it hard for me… my priority is my family. So I shout to all of the things in my life that makes my lfe so goddamn hard… KAYA KO PA! CGE SAKTAN NYO LANG AKO! PAHIRAPAN NYO LANG AKO! KAYA KO YAN! I can turn my back to ANYTHING or ANYONE.
I’ll endure anything if its for my family. Remember that my so-called ‘life’. Pwe!
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it seems the "survey" craze is not diminishing…eventhough i posted a very strong message against it, nothing happened. so, i decided to immortalize myself on the friendster bulletin and created a "survey" myself just for my amusement. here’s a copy of it…enjoy ^__^
1. have you answered any "survey" in friendster bulletin before?
– no
2. are you interested in answering any in the future?
– no
3. are you amused by the "surveys" that your friends are answering?
– no
4. their answers?
– definitely no
5. do you care about their answers?
– no
6. have you read a single useful bulletin since you joined friendster?
– no
7. do u think there will be any useful bulletin in the future?
– no
8. do u spam the bulletin with useless information?
– hell no
9. wont your friends think that you’re an outcast for creating this "survey"?
– no
10. wont this offend them?
– i hope no
11. do u think someone will repost this?
– no
wow…the 2nd branch sure is progressing at a slooooooow pace. 1 month after and its still about half-way through. tsk tsk. nwei, its more of a financial problem than anything else…gotta think of ways to earn more mooolah! ^__^
speakin of moolah…i can’t believe that Virtual-On (VoicE for short) is surviving this summer desert. this summer is waaaay better than last year’s. there are alot of high school students that attends summer classes and quite frankly, its because of them that we’re staying afloat. with a guilty conscience, i rid them of their parents’ money and let them play games all day long….NOT! hehe… ^__^
i had a horrible experience 2 days ago…my car broke down in the middle of EDSA in front of SM Megamall. i was on my way to pick up my sister at QC. my first thought was "oh shit!". sorry for that folks but that really was my first reaction to the situation. i knew i was in big trouble when an MMDA tow truck stopped in front of me. my second thought was this…"oh shit! gastos pa…". i really tried to make the car start up again…but it was a hopeless case…the damned thing wont cut me slack. tsk! to make the story short (and not make me relive the nightmare all over again) i was towed to the impounding area near the Office of the Ombudsman at North EDSA….fined a whopping P1,700.00…forced to walk a few miles for the nearest ATM…walk back…paid with a VERY heavy heart (my hard-earned moolah! shit! shit! shit!)…then called the Wheeler’s club so that me and the car could go home. *sigh* to add insult to injury…a day prior to that, i had the car tuned-up and shelled out P1200.00 for that. *sigh* *sigh* *sigh* well, the whole experience was screaming the word "MALAS". 2 days later the car was fixed (no charge, i made sure of that)…the mechanic told me that the one who tuned-up the car forgot to securely tighten the new condenser thus cutting off the electricity from the engine. bastard.
well…thats that! just an update to the few people that still read my blog. lol. tune in next time for my colorful world. ^______^
Im still awake again…what time is it now? Hmm…woah! Its 4:31am right now. What da…
Lately I’ve been fond of playing games. Maybe the summer craze is getting to me but I played more game time for the past 3 months than when I did the whole year last year! I can’t say its bad. Im enjoying it. But I hope not too much coz I still do have work to do.
Work…work, work…*sigh*…everybody grows tired of work eventually. No matter how responsible and hard-working a person is…there just comes a time that you grow tired of it. Know what I mean?
Maybe that’s what so good about games for me. Lets me somehow forget for a while. Lets me relax and unwind. Personally, I don’t even know why people resort to alcohol and drugs when you can just play. LOL! Nwei gotta get some sleep. Seriously…its almost 5am! *Yaaaaaaaaaawn* Nyt folks! (oops…its almost morning…oh well…) ^^
woah! its been a long time since I posted anything here…and reading my old posts was so nostalgic that I had to stop! (lol) ^^
anyway, this sudden post has something to do about something I read today. someday (except for the ones with religious callings) we will all have families of our own, and most likely become parents. so here’s something to reflect upon….
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An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45
years old highly educated son. Suddenly a crow perched on their window.
The Father asked his Son, "What is this?" The Son replied "It is a crow".
After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, "What is this?"
The Son said "Father, I have just now told you "It’s a crow".
After a little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time,
“What is this?"
At this time some ex-pression of irritation was felt in the Son’s tone when
he said to his Father with a rebuff. "It’s a crow, a crow".
A little after, the Father again asked his Son t he 4th time, "What is
this?"
This time the Son shouted at his Father, "Why do you keep asking me the
same question again and again, although I have told you so many times ‘IT
IS A CROW’. Are you not able to understand this?"
A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old
tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son was born. On opening
a page, he asked his Son to read that page. When the son read it, the
following words were written in the diary. Today my little son aged three
was sitting with me on the sofa, when a crow was sitting on the window. My
Son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to him all 23 times that
it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same
question again and again for 23 times. I did not at all feel irritated I
rather felt affection for my innocent child".
While the little child asked him 23 times "What is this", the Father had
felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and when
today the Father asked his Son the same question just 4 times, the Son felt
irritated and annoyed.
So..
If your parents attain old age, do not repulse them or look at them as a
burden, but speak to them gracious word, be cool, obedient, humble and kind
to them. Be considerate to your parents. From today say this aloud, "I want
to see my parents happy forever. They have cared for me ever since I was a
little child. They have always showered their selfless love on me.
They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to
make me a person presentable in the society today".
Say a prayer to God, "I will serve my old parents in the BEST way. I will
say all good and kind words to my dear parents, no matter how they behave.
