Doing what I think is right
Warning guys…this is a rant…read at your own risk. ^__^
I’ve been thinking alot of things lately. Maybe its due to the fact that I have a lot more free time for myself since its summer vacation and customers are just ‘trickling’ during this season. I’ve been sighing alot more often now. Sheesh.
I think it started when I learned that a very good friend of mine is having the crisis of her lifetime. I won’t dwell on the details but the bottomline is…I wasn’t able to do anything during the time she told me all about it. I was just there…struck and looking dumb. It’s not everyday that you hear about a baby, marriage, miscarriage, and aborted marriage all happening in one month’s time. All of it was so new to me that it felt like my system just shut down. What’s a person like me to do? All I had to offer was a listening ear and hope for the best. Sigh.
Then there was an offer…a new career opportunity. I was told it pays a lot. Benefits are great. All I had to do was sign a contract that binds me to that company for two years. I was tempted…really tempted. I could do a lot of things or buy a lot of things from that salary. But I thought of my business. I put a lot of effort on it, it just started, I seriously sweat blood for it. And I’m positive I’ll do better next school year. I just can’t walk away. I want to prove that virtual-on could be the best computer shop on that area. I want to know how far I can take it if I do my very best this next school year. So I declined the offer. I really hope I made a good decision. Well, I still feel I made the right decision. It’s a good thing, right? Sigh.
And then there’s the relationship issues. I mean…its kinda normal to have little fights inside a romantic relationship. Its also kinda cute especially on your first few months together. But frankly speaking, when you’ve been having these little fights for years…its not so cute anymore. Its more of annoying. And most of the time I ask the questions…"when will it end? when will a true mature relationship start?" Can’t a person experience it before marriage? Are boyfriend/girlfriend relationships doomed to have immature fights forever? I seriously wish I could experience a mature, trusting, and meaningful relationship without the mini-fights before marriage. I think every person deserves that. Sigh.
Well thats it for my rant! I have to rest and start early tomorrow. Oops…its already 1:12am. So much for a gudnyt’s rest. I can still sleep for around 4hours I think. Sigh.
